Hello ,
We aren't firm in our faith, courageous, or strong whatsoever without our Heavenly Father involved in our lives...day by day, moment by moment.
I won't pretend to know (or understand), what you're going through in life, that issue that may be challenging you; but I know that there is a God Who cares.
Let's turn to Him with all of our joys, struggles, smiles, and tears. God wants to "do life" with us...now, and for eternity.
Have a great day, and God bless!